1. |
bows and arrows
04:44
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Keep our family close
Close like bows and arrows
Keep our family close
Close like bows
Bows and arrows
Assault ready or not?!
Ready or not?!
Assault ready or not?!
Ready? Assault!
Coming at you!
Rise up!
Welcome Home!
You’re not Crazy!
You’re not Alone!
Keep our family close
Close like bows and arrows
Keep our family close
Close like bows
Bows and arrows
Assault ready or not?!
Ready or not?!
Assault ready or not?!
Ready? Assault!
T
There’s an evil in my house with the keys to where I live. There’s no escaping him and all the things he is. When it gets real bad, I calm my head. I remember one day I’ll at least be dead and then it ends right there. What’s the worst that can happen? It’s the end.
You’ve got a key!
I went out here and laid in the road. I thought if I could die here, it’d be over but no one is driving by to help. ‘Cause my dog got hit here. I thought maybe but it’s been a while and I’m cold I guess.
Coming at you!
You’ve GOT A KEY!
Rise up!
Welcome Home!
You’re not Crazy!
You’re not Alone!
Assault ready?!
Assault ready?!
Assault ready?!
Assault ready?!
Assault ready or not
Ready?!
Assault!
Coming’s at you
!
You’ve GOT A KEY!
You gotta Keep our family close
Close like bows
Bows and arrows
You’ve got a key!
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2. |
billboard bandit
04:05
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This is so much fun!
We gotta fight for our right!
Runnin’ through the night, we’re gonna make it right!
We gotta fight with all our might!
Runnin’ through the night, we’re gonna be alright!
We gotta fight for our right!
Runnin’ through the night, we’re gonna make it right!
We gotta fight!
You could call me a Billboard Bandit
‘cause I always go crimin’
All I need is a can of paint
and I’m already climbing
‘Cause These glossy signs z’been breakin’ minds
They promise many things
I’ll take every advert expose what it really means.
Ha!
Make signs not sense
Make signs nonsense
Make signs make sense
We gotta fight for our right!
Runnin’ through the night, we’re gonna make it right!
We gotta fight with all our might!
Runnin’ through the night, we’re gonna be alright!
Make signs not sense
Make signs nonsense
Make signs make sense
You’re more than just a pretty face
upon the billboards that you grace
The Corporations selling lies
They shoot them in our eyes
You’re more than just a selling point
You are the beauty that’s inside
you needn’t shave to be their queen
you needn’t live their cyber dream
We gotta fight for our right!
Runnin’ through the night, we’re gonna make it right!
We gotta fight with all our might!
Runnin’ through the night, we’re gonna be alright!
Make signs not sense
Make signs nonsense
Make signs make sense
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3. |
flesh shapes
02:38
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I’m keen on the way your flesh is arranged.
I’m keen on the way your skin
wraps around your skeleton.
Your face is a record breaker.
Heart to hold in the woods on a stake.
A fire beats up on the side of the trees
inside these glorious nights.
I’m keen on the way your flesh is arranged.
I’m keen on the way your skin
wraps around your skeleton.
Hands that hold my face in them now.
Your face is a record breaker.
Heart to hold in the woods on a stake.
A fire beats up on the side of the trees
inside these glorious nights.
Your heart has an echo in me.
We laugh and we throw off the sheets.
We’ll dream when we’re ready to leave,
for now you’re inside me.
I’m keen on the way your flesh is arranged.
I’m keen on the way your ghost
wraps around the skin it’s in.
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4. |
can't hit
05:17
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poking holes in veiny leaves
3,000 x & the blood won’t bleed
what i need is not to need to leave
(under water)
(vg jnf nyy whfg n urebva qernz - frqngvat)
sitting with a view like this
backdrop the whole universe
dress is made of dreaming fish
hair is colored like the sky
there’s an ocean
waving to me
as i’m heading
toward the shore
my heart is filling
up with chaos
as i bask in centuries
come and plant what you need
these seeds become trees
You’ll lose your garden
There’s an ocean!!!
poking holes in veiny leaves
3,000 x & the blood won’t bleed
friends’ll leave every place behind
(the water) (vg jnf nyy whfg n urebva qernz - frqngvat)
sitting with a gift of peace
tiny slice is all i’ll keep
a memory of getting through
open heart is living proof
there’s an ocean
moving through me
as i’m floating
toward my doom
my arms are covered
i’ve been bruising
and my hand
is choking me
come and
plant what you need
these seeds
become trees
autumn brings the harvest in
the veil between the worlds is thin
before the winter of my life
i’ll settle down
make me my wife
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5. |
excess
03:06
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we are the birds
who got used to the bell
we are the cats
who used to hunt so well
we’re just looking
we are the elephants
who carry and bury our dead
we are the alligators
underneath your bed
we’re just looking
for a place
any place will do
a place without you
you and your excess
a place, a home, a cave
to help us stay safe
during your trespass
we are the frogs
warming up on the tar in the rain
we are the python in your sewer drain
we were just living
we are the pangolin
trying to keep our skin
we are the coyote
you found outside your bin
now we’re just running
to a place
any place will do
a place without you
you and your excess
a place, a home, a cave
to help us stay sane
during your trespass
we are the wild horses
the very essence of free
and above our heads
from your metal bird
you go on a killing spree
we’re not asking you to help us
we just want you to go
leave us
you just ruin every wetland
you break everything that you touch
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6. |
water balloons
05:01
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let this be how it ends
arms stretched out like I’m hugging a ghost friend
i’m out of fucks to give
backed in a corner with no-one to tend to me
i’ve licked all your wounds and i’ve fought off your enemies
it’s all over
when you said that i was what was wrong with the world
i had to take you at your word
i’m on the inside now
no one’s looking out
when you said that i was what was wrong with the world
i had to take you at your word
i’m on the inside now
no one’s coming out
let this be how it ends
arms stretched out like i’m hugging an old friend
i’m raw - opened up
trapped in a corner with no-one to tend to me
i’ve licked all your wounds and i’ve fought off your enemies
it’s all over
when you said that i was what was wrong with the world
i had to take you at your word
i’m on the inside now
no one’s looking out
when you said that i was what was wrong with the world
i had to take you at your word
i’m on the inside now
no one’s coming out
how could i believe you?
let this be how it ends
arms stretched out like i’m hugging an old friend
i’m raw - opened up
packed in a corner with no-one to tend to me
i licked all your wounds
and i fought all your enemies
it’s all over
when you said that i was what was wrong with the world
i had to take you at your word
i’m on the inside now
no one’s looking out
when you said that i was what was wrong with the world
i had to take you at your word
i’m on the inside now
no one’s coming out
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7. |
EACHONETEACHONE
03:36
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i’m gonna teach you every
everything that i know
how to make a garden last in the snow
how to make a filter out rocks and coal.
but you gotta get up
i'm gonna teach you every
everything that i know
how to stay warm when you’re shivering cold
how to hold on and to let go
(get out of the road)
kill me kill me
! why don’t you kill me?
kill me kill me
why don’t you kill me now?
I can’t ‘cause
i’m gonna show you every
everything that i know
we could walk in the woods
are you ready go?
we'll go to sleep on a bed of leaves under the oldest oak tree
and it'd be you and me.
i’m gonna teach you.
kill me kill me
! why don’t you kill me?
kill me kill me!
why don’t you kill let me die here and now? End it!
Get up! Get up! Get up! Get up!
listen kid.
you gotta see.
i am you & and you're me.
i can’t explain it now
but if i let you die then i
i'll - disappear.
i kinda like it here
so you better get through this
i’m living proof that you can do this
you gotta trust in me
.
give me your hand get outta’ the street
!
I know you’re afraid to speak
I’m afraid to speak
They’ll come They’ll take your family
I’m afraid to sleep
of smashed up faces and bruises all over
I’m afraid to see
They’re riddled with fear
They’ll take my mom from me
until life disappears
It’s all I know
It’s enough to make me sick
It’s all I know
I’m remembering
It’s all I know
all of it!
No No No No no no NO! NO! NO!
Shhhh
How could she know now?
How we end up fine.
We’re here with you.
You’re not alone!
(come on)
You’re not Alone
(it’s okay)
We’re here with you
You’re not alone
You’re not alone
We’re here with you
Come on!
You can tell me every - everything that you know
Tell me all your stories and we’ll fix shit that’s broke
We can ride on motorcycles
winding our hair
I can teach you
I wanna’ show you every - every part of me
where I’ve been and what I’ve seen to believe
Give and take and ready to receive
‘Cause it’s the only way to be
free
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8. |
Teatime Wormhole
01:17
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How lovely this room
How well we are met
Those whom privy
mine eyes beget
Those who are nay
let it not be in way
for
time
here
hangs
Hello.
I made you a cup of tea.
Are you ready?
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9. |
Medicine of Time Travel
04:02
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a place that stays exactly the way you left it
corridor
stand where you are
where you are right now
CHOOSE YOUR OWN ADVENTURE
You can turn the page
back to any day
even the ones you don’t remember
now
memory kept a promise
to leave the light on in the stone
not to complicate
there are no mistakes
you made it here, didn’t you?
now
split yourself in half
meet you in your past
on your own turf
and on your own timeline
you can fold yourself
deep upon yourself
keep on folding
all your selves in
layer upon layer
your voices bring
the colour of the day or night
all that distracts
is a nuisance and so obvious
now
take your cut out
it’s your new talisman
it’s the medicine of time travel
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10. |
lilacs
05:03
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lilacsikeepwakinguptoolateforschoolandhangingoutinthewoodsonthewaytoschoolinstead.imostlysetleavesonfireandsmokecigarettebuttsifindonthegroundduringmypaperrouteicantsleepbecausemystomachalwayshurtsifeelbadallthetimeimtiredandicanteatbutthenimsohungryicantsleepsobutifieatiwannapuke.itsjustmystomachhurtsallthetimetheteacherstoldonmesonowacophasbeendrivingnexttomewhileiwalktoschooltomakesureigowehavetogothelongwaythough,notthroughthewoodsbecausethentheycantdriveidontwanttogetinthecarbuttheydontevermakemetheydrivenexttomerealslowwhileiwalkallthewaytoschooltheytalktomeaboutwhyidontwanttogotoschoolandwetalkaboutstuffsometimes
lilacs
everysingledayatthebeginningofthesummerimakelittlebasketsoutoftinfoilandpicklilacsfromourgardenandgivethemtomymomshewasbornwithouthersmellhernosecantsmellbutwhenigivethemtohersheputsthemuptohernoseandbreathesinandgoesmmmmmthankyouandlastyearmomputajarinthelaundryroomandtoldusalltoputanychangethatwefindinthereonthejaritsaiddisneyworldwefilleditupasmuchaswecouldshepickedupthejarandsaidwehaveenoughtogowedrovedowntofloridaandspenttheweekinatrailerbyariverwithadeadbunnyfloatinginitidontthinkicarediftherewasamilliondeadthingsfloatingintheriverandcockroacheseverywherecausemymomgotusawayfrommystepdadfor10daysidontevenlikemickeymouseoranyofthemitskidstuffbutyesterdayshetoldusthattheyregettingdivorcedthisisthehappiestdayofmylifetodayigotuptodayrealearlyandmilkedgoatsandpouredthemilkintoanemptycontainertheotherkidsdontseemtonoticebuticanalwaystellandidontcareforitatallittasteslikegoathairialwayssetoutmyclothesforthewholeweekonsundaysoiknowwhati’mgoingtoweareverydayitscoldinthemorningssoihavetowearmysnowpantsandtuckthemintomybootsthedogswaterdishfreezesinthekitchensowepokeitwithastickinthisgiantfreezinghouseitshauntedheresalittlegirlherewhoisdeadicallherlilybutshedoesntknowhernameandsheknocksonthedoornexttomybedthatgoesintotheeavesmybestfriendwontsleepoveranymorebecauseoflilyandalltheotherghostsbutimfriendswithlilyshehasneverdoneanythingmeantomesheknockssometimesanditellhertogoawayandshekeepsknockingsometimesandsometimesshestopsiespeciallytellhertostopwhenmyfriendsareoverbecausetheyhardlycomeoveranymorecausetheyrescaredofherwhenshegetsmadsometimesshethrowstoysdownthestairswhenwereinthelivingroomandbabysitterranawaywhenthathappenedtheresameanghostherewhobreaksthingsandopensbigheavydoorswhenweputdressersinfrontofthemevenbutheonlyreallymesseswithmystepdadandsomeeldersfromthekingdomhallthatcameovertootheygotsoscaredtheydroppedtheirflashlightsandleftinabighurryonenighttheyweresupposedtocomeoverandhelpoutwiththeghostsbuttheyweretoochickentheresaghostthatlikestomoveeverythinginthekitchenandmymomyellsthisismykitchenandtheflourgoesoverhereandsheputseverythingbackinthemorningandtheghostalwaysmoveshercookingjarstothefloorwherethecounterusedtobethatmightbetheghostthatputherhandonmymomsshoulderwhileshewasplayingpianoonenightshedidntlikeitbutithinktheghostlikedherpianoithinktheghostlikedherillmisssomeoftheghostsbutiwontmissthehouseweremovingoutsowecanttakealotimsoexcitedidontevencareabouthavingtogotoanewschoolidontcareaboutanythingbadanymoreimso
happy
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11. |
oneteen
02:38
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I remember turning ten I was so excited to hit the double digits. I called it tenteen. Once I turned oneteen I had been moved out of the haunted house into another big house but this one was split up into 4 sections. Right before I turned twelve everything goes black. The long slog to twelve and a half and thirteen was spent blacked out. But why? We were finally free from him.
I was finally free from him.
I just wasn’t able to bask in the warmth of the word “safe”.
The way I saw it every councilor, every teacher, every adult that passed by was a possible abductor waiting for the right moment to rip us all apart. My Mom, a newly liberated single woman with four children working four jobs. she still couldn’t make ends meet in the eyes of the state. We hopped schools a lot and moved a bunch but now that my Mom was on her own, working so much to get us all raised up and finally free - now we could be
split up and taken away - for neglect.
I was down in the dungeons of my mind from mid oneteen to twelve, for a year. Feverishly sorting through memories, putting them where they needed to go. Every time the wind would blow it sent memories flying into the air. If a familiar shadow or silhouette or a sound happened at the just the right or wrong moment then the wind would blow causing the memories to fly around. Some particularly awful memories would blow right up against my face screaming to be noticed, to be dealt with. So I spent a whole year building filing cabinets in a dungeon and sorting every damn memory I could find. That was the year I only remember as a cartoon version of itself.
I can’t re[me]mber what happened [outside] that year I can only get glimpses of me setting large structures on fire and writing so hard in my journals that the pages ripped; but that was when all the groundwork was laid.
That year of twelve is a big part of why I’m okay now.
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12. |
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a place that stays exactly the way you left it
corridor
stand where you are
where you are right now
CHOOSE YOUR OWN ADVENTURE
You can turn the page
back to any day
even the ones you don’t remember
now
memory kept a promise
to leave the light on in the stone
not to complicate
there are no mistakes
you made it here, didn’t you?
now
split yourself in half
meet you in your past
on your own turf
and on your own timeline
you can fold yourself
deep upon yourself
keep on folding
all your selves in
layer upon layer
your voices bring
the colour of the day or night
all that distracts
is a nuisance and so obvious
now
take your cut out
it’s your new talisman
it’s the medicine of time travel
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